1. Om mani padme hum : is part of an ongoing project that visualizes the various forms of violence I experienced as a child and as a woman. This particular work focuses on shamanistic abuse perpetrated by my mother, conveyed through a combination of text and visual objects. More than a personal confession, the work seeks to expose the structures of hidden violence within the family and to share the wounds and psychological pain that such violence leaves behind.
The text consists of direct descriptions of violent events, interwoven with dreams, fantasies, and desires I had during that time. These writings drift between the boundaries of reality and imagination; they do not simply document memories, but function as tools for reconstructing and rearranging them—offering a way to re-encounter my inner world. The narratives are written from a detached, third-person perspective, allowing for both a clear-eyed recounting of violence and a fragmented, dreamlike distortion of those same moments.
As a child, I immersed myself in imaginary worlds—fantasy novels, comics, and games—as a way to escape the ongoing violence and endure my reality. This wasn’t a form of escapist entertainment, but rather a psychological mechanism for survival. That inner retreat into fantasy has profoundly influenced the structure of Om mani padme hum, which blends reality and imagination as a reflection of both past coping strategies and present creative reconstruction.